I've lost weight. I dunno how much because I refuse to weigh myself.  All I know is that pants that I couldn't wear two weeks ago because they were too snug are now fitting perfectly and pants that fit perfectly are now loose. It's the swimming that's doing it, I think.  I'm swimming a few laps pretty much every day, and I'm walking 3/4 mile with the dogs in the evening (and sometimes the mornings too).  I know that the walking is speeding up my metabolism, which is always g...

10 years ago today, I was busy. I was laboring with my son, Jake.  Actually, it was around this time that the morphine wore off and they wouldn't give me any more because I was 7cm.  I stayed there for 5 hours, and they refused to give me any more pain relief the entire time.  At 6:16pm MST, Jacob Solomon was born.  He was 8lbs 7oz and he was 20" long, and he was the calmest baby with the longest toes I'd ever seen. He's 10 today.  He's got his ID card now, so h...

We talked last night.  Dave and I took the dogs for a walk and we talked about 'us' and what we're going to do. He's probably going to deploy later this year.  To a much more dangerous place than last time.  I don't want to have him leave and have 'us' not be okay, and I told him as much. "I think we'll be okay.  By then, I mean" he said. I'm impressed by his confidence.  Sunday night, whilst it wasn't pleasant, enabled us both to release a lot...

We had a major fight last night.  Huge.  Ugly.  Things were said, and as we all know, once something's said you can't unsay it.  It just hangs there, shadowing everything else that's said after it, looming like some huge black thunderhead that threatens torrential rain. It made good on it's threat, but there wasn't any rain.  There were tears instead.  My tears.  Tears that burned my eyes and nose as they rained down my face and dripped onto the collar o...

I've never liked Air Force pilots much. I've always thought that they were a bunch of egotistical bastards who were too full of themselves for my liking, and are/were incredibly clique-y. I still think they're egotistical, but I understand the clique-y-ness now.  My husband and family have gorwn tired of my trying to explain to them the feeling of incredible lightness that occurs as you pull back on the controls and are airborne.  We were driving around the pe...

Karma tagged me, so now it's my turn to write 5 embarrasing things about my childhood.  Hmm....let me see. 1) I used to sing in the church choir, and we wore traditional robes, ruffled collars and hats.  I was short back then - heck, I'm still short now - so the robes were a wee but too long for me.  Mum tried to hem them up, but because they were so old she was scared that she'd damage the fabric, so she tacked them a little and told me I'd have to make do and be careful. ...

I have an abcessed tooth again.  I'm going to see the dentist this afternoon, and I think that rather than have a root canal done I'm going to have him yank it out.  There's a reason for my decision to have it pulled. First of all, I'm already missing a pre molar and a molar, thanks to the accident.  I asked about getting a partial to replace those teeth, but my last dentist said that he wasn't prepared to make me a partial until I had at least 3 teeth missing.  If I ge...

I'm watching 'Dateline' on NBC. They're interviewing Mary Kay LeTourneau and her husband, Vili Fulau.  She was a teacher who inititated a physical relationship with her 13 year old student, who had sex with him and bore him 2 children.  She went to jail for it, and when she was released they got married. Had the roles been reversed; if it was a MALE teacher who seduced his 13 year old female student and married her after he was released from prison, would Dateline be in...

My birthday is the friday after next, and Dave's been asking me what I want.  I haven't been able to come up with anything; my desires have decreased as I get older and I haven't been able to come up with anything that I REALLY want. Until today. We live on an Air Force base that has a private Aero Club for people who have little Cessnas and prop jobs to tool around in.  The Aero Club has just started offering a one hour inital training flight for $60, where you get to sit in the...

I am human.  I have human emotions, feelings...I am not controlled by them, but nonethless my words and actions are affected by them. I am not immune to hostility and anger.  When you cut me, I bleed - and today, your words and your actions cut me.  I'm not going to overexaggerate and say that you cut me to the bone, but you cut me you did, and I bled and shed tears.  I don't need many people very often; I've become adept at managing on my own...but toda...