Well, lump ISN'T a cyst. But we don't know what it IS. I was fine until the doc got her tape measure out and started mapping lump's dimensions..then I burst into tears. I think it was because up until then I had thought that it was all a figment of my imagination, and seeing her manipulate it made it real somehow. The official opinion so far is that I have a 4cm by 4cm mass in my left breast. She was very gentle, and said that we should get a diagnostic mammogram and an ultraso...

My left boob has been touched and looked at and discussed by more people than I care to think about in the last couple of days...and there's more of the same in store today. Today I get to go lay it on a little plate and have it squished almost flat so the radiologist can take an X-ray....a boob in a vice, if you will. Then I'll go down the hallway and have someone else I don't know squirt some cold jelly on it and scan it with the ultrasound gadget. Everyone will take measurements and d...

Well, the opinions are in. It's not cancer. I have fybrocystic breast disease. My body's breast tissue likes to clump together and make knots, lumps bumps etc, etc. There isn't any treatment for it, it's just one of those things you live with. The lump I have now, however, would probably be better off being removed. I have an appointment with a surgeon on March 3rd to discuss and schedule to take lump out and biopsy it. Sometimes there can be microscopic changes that, although they'...

I had the much-awaited appointment with my surgeon today. It was supposed to be last week, but the storm put paid to that idea. Long story short, he didn't like the idea of leaving lump in there to grow and perhaps invite some friends and relatives over for a party. It has been growing, it wasn't just my imagination. It's only a tiny bit bigger than when I discovered it, but it's bigger nonetheless. So, next week lump will be removed and biopsied to see exactly what it consists of. ...

Well, as Karma predicted, my MRI was normal. I have to keep a symptom diary for a week and then go back. What I really want to do, and what I think I will do, is go in if I happen to have a 'bad' day between now and then. By bad, I mean really fatigued, shaky, numb, weak all the crap I've been dealing with for the past months/years. I want my doc to see my when I'm like that rather than on a 'good' day....I can try and describe my symptoms to him all I want to, but I think him seeing i...

I'm sick. I think I have the flu. I hurt all over, I have a fever, a headache, my nose alternates between being plugged up and running like a faucet, my throat is sore.....I'm just miserable. I tried to go swim this morning (I've been bitten by the swimming bug again after spending 2 hours in the water with the kids Sunday afternoon) and managed to struggle through 10 laps before giving up because my ears hurt and my lungs felt like they were on fire. Because I'm sick, I'm also tired....

I had an MRI done this morning. I had my head clamped on either side, then they put a cage kinda device over my face, with a little mirror in front of my eyes, angled so I could see out of the machine and hopefully not feel quite so claustraphobic. They gave me some headphones to wear so I could listen to the radio, then slid me into this tube and started the machine. Being in there was odd..it makes this rhythmic throbbing, humming noise, much like what a maternal heatbeat must sound li...

Bet that title got your attention, didn't it?! I AM getting a hard body...toned, and taught. I've been trying to get back into shape after last year's accident...and it hasn't been easy. My activities have been restricted because of the damage I did to my skeletal structure and musculature. Today, for the first time in ages, I swam over 1/2 a mile. This morning, before I swam, I did a complete yoga workout and managed a right angled handstand as well as 'crow' (it's handstand b...

I had a flashback of sorts this evening. For those of you who don't know, let me lay down a little background for you: I had a bad vehicle accident last October. The ass end of my jeep slid out on some black ice on the interstate and I ended up facing oncoming traffic and got nailed head-on by an 18 wheeler. I broke some ribs, my collarbone, shoulderblade, dislocated my shoulders, tore tendons in my neck, cut up my knees, broke my knuckle on my right hand, and bruised my heart and lungs....

I beat my goal of another half mile in the water today and swam a mile instead. It wasn't that hard. I cheated and took a 10 second breather around the 3/4 mile mark, then pressed on. Had 'spaghetti legs' when I got out of the pool, but they went away after a couple of seconds. I think that I'm going to start concentrating on my form tomorrow, and hopefully my speed will come up as my form gets better. I love swimming! Sorry, I just had to say that!

Well, it seems the wreck is never going to go away. I had to go talk to my doc this morning, just a routine follow up kind of thing. I mentioned to him that I was having difficulty with my backstroke; the backward swing of it makes my left shoulder clunk and hurt, so I try not to do it too often - not the windmill version of it, anyway. He took a look, had a feel, moved my arm around and made my shoulder hurt, and told me he was pretty sure I had torn my labrum, the 'cup' of cartilage th...

I got bitten by a spider this morning, and I think it was a Black Widow. I was cleaning out dried grass from the bottom of the lawn mower (the kids had mowed last time and didn't bother to clean off the grass clippings) and I felt something pinch my hand.  It wasn't incredibly painful, in fact I though I'd been poked with a splinter or something.  I shook the grass off my hand to see what I'd been jabbed with and a little black spider fell off onto the garage floor.  I had a lo...

I had a final visit with my doctor this morning. My back's been bothering me for weeks....I fell down the stairs and he thinks I probably re-herniated the L2 disc.  It's been painful, enough to make me sleep on the futon instead of our bed, and I've had a steady supply of pain meds to enable me to get about and do what's been neccessary. So, this morning he mentioned that once we in-process our next base I'll probably need to start a series of steroid shots directly into the problem a...

For those of you who aren't up to speed.....I had a large lump (about the size of a hen's egg) removed from my left breast earlier this year.  It was non-cancerous, but it still had to come out anyway. Now that everything has shifted back to normal and things have healed and settled....I'm lopsided.  My right is noticeably bigger than my left.  I usually wear a C cup...and I fill out the right side nicely.  The left is emptier.  I tried on a bra that was a B cup the o...

Blah, blah and double blah.  That's how I feel today. I have a snotty nose, clogged up sinuses, a headache, all my teeth hurt, my nose is raw from wiping, my joints hurt and all I want to do is lay around whining and feeling sorry for myself in general. I hate being sick.  It would help if I could sleep, but I can't...all I do is lay there, coughing and sniffling and generally feeling rotten.  Ok, I'm done whining now.