I've found a lump in my left breast. I had hesitated to write about this because I thought it too personal, too intimate to post...but then I thought some more and realized that this is probably the best place to talk about it. I found the lump quite by accident. I was sitting on the couch and had an itch, so I reached over to scratch and felt a mass, about the size of half an egg, in my left breast. Not wanting to alarm the kids, I went to my bedroom to explore further. I to...

I love you. Always have, always will. No matter what I say in anger or frustration, becoming your wife was the best damn thing i ever did, and I wouldn't change anything, not one single second, of the last decade with you. Good or not-so-good, it's all been a learning experience - and we've learned a lot together, you and I. I would even go so far as to say that we grew up together. I am so much more with you than I am without you. May this journey continue...and may we always travel ...

I've been reading some blogs today, and I am struck by the poor spelling in some of them. I'm not a perfect speller myself, but I'm amazed at the lack of knowledge of how to spell the most basic words...or how to use words properly. Some of the stuff I read today looked like it had been written by my 3rd grader! I know that sometimes people get ahead of themselves when they're typing and letters get put in the wrong order (i'm guilty of that, just as I'm guilty of mis-spelling sometimes) ...

I have boundaries. If someone I don't know encroaches on my boundaries, my personal space, I start to feel very uncomfortable. It happened to me twice this morning. I was waiting in line at the pharmacy when an elderly gentleman walked up behind me. He stood about 12" from me, breathing heavily down my neck. I shifted forward a step, hoping to restore my comfort zone...and so did he. I waited a bit, tried not to feel too uncomfortable, and moved forward again....and so did he. There wa...

My friend Jim is returning to the area this weekend. He's the closest thing to a dharma bum i've ever had the fortune to meet. We have had some really cool times together, talking about philosophy, religions, music, people...anything. he's very well read and very intelligent...but not showy about it, if you know what i mean. Jim has had a few careers, from being enlisted in the army to being a certified massage therapist, to wroking at an express lube changing the oil in people's cars. ...

I took my 11 year old daughter shopping this evening. We had a wonderfully 'girly' time looking at make-up and clothes and shoes, etc. We had stopped to sniff some scented candles when Shea said "Mom, that guy's looking at you" I looked up to see the back of a tall, dark young man disappearing around the end of an aisle. (I have to sideline a bit here. When I say young, I mean young, like late teens to early 20's. I'm 34...so anything under 21 is young to me!) " You sure?" I asked ...

Well, I went to talk to someone 'in the know' at the base Finance Office about the recent travel fiasco Dave endured. Bottom line is this: the reg. says what the reg. says, and that's that. Doesn't make it right, but that's what it says and there's nothing we can do about it. We're out a couple of hundred, and have the proverbial snowball's chance of recovering it. Sometimes I really dislike the Air Force. I mean really, really dislike the Air Force. But then I look at where we'...

In my rage over the AF's sodomizing us earlier I forgot to tell you: I fell down the stairs and re-fractured my ribs! Hahahahaha!!!!(I'd do that in reality if it didn't hurt quite so bad) I spent the morning in the ER! Hahahahaha!!!! I'm on percocet! Hahahahahaha!!!! (all laughter is genuine and in no way cynical or sarcastic. I don't know why, but I find the whole situation quite hilarious - perhaps it's the drugs)

I'm pissed. Furious is a better description, really. As you all know, Dave went back to his duty station last week after he took 3 weeks' leave. His current duty station is a 'remote' assignment in the Arctic Circle, and there is one, count 'em, one military flight in and out of there a week. No civilian flights at all, just military....here's a thought...since i got married the military has drummed into me at every opportunity they've been given the importance of having a Plan 'B'...yet...

Ok, i just re-read what i have written in the past couple of days, and I don't like what i see. All I seem to have done is complain about my lot in life, how bad my life is, how being me sucks...it's pathetic! I'm really not like this usually....and i think the time has come for me to kick myself in the ass and just get the fuck on with shit instead of complaining. Yes, this is hard, and yes, it hurts...but i need to quit fucking whining. This is what i need to say to myself: Shit happen...

I'm having a crisis of faith. It's been an on-going crisis for months/possibly years now....and i can't quite seem to find a solution for it. Let me begin by laying a foundation for you. I was raised C of E (Church of England), a protestant faith. When i came to the States oh, 14 or so years ago, i went off on this journey to find a faith that i was comfortable with...and there were many of them! I went through Catholicism, Baptist (Southern and otherwise), Lutheran, Methodist...you nam...

Will someone who's seen the commercial for Quizno's subs please tell me what those things are? They look like deceased hamsters....and while i'm starting to find them kind of endearing, at first I found them quite disturbing. Not the kind of thing that's going to make me want to run out to the nearest Quizno's and buy food......

I had to go to WalMart this morning (my friend's kid was having a birthday and I, as usual, had put off getting a card and a gift until the very last minute). I went early (what I thought was early), around 8 am to try and miss the coming-out-of-church crowd, and discovered a whole sub-set of people who apparently had the same thought as me. It was actually quite busy, so we (my kids and I) just got what we needed and decided to get out of there (in itself an unusual event; i like to browse an...

welcome to my mundane blog!i decided out of boredom more than anything to set up my own site to record how/what i'm feeling. i'm in my mid 30's, married for 10 years, have 3 kids, 3 cats, live on a military base...don't work (had a vehicle accident last year that i'm still trying to recover from)..and i feel like i'm starved of intelligent conversation and company. my husband is gone overseas for a year - we're halfway through; he was home last month for some much needed TLC and R&R, but he le...