I just scored me a sweet ass T shirt on eBay.  It looks like this: Hey, if Madonna can wear 'Mary is my homegirl' and 'Kabbalists do it better' T's then I can sport a 'Buddha is my homeboy'....right? I had stopped telling people about my chosen path.  I had some negative reactions at one point, and I stopped telling people because I felt that it made them uncomfortable. Then I thought about it....and thought about it some more....and decided I'm not going to hide wh...

My big brother's coming to St Louis on business next month sometime....which means I get to see him for the first time in 10 years!  Yay!!!!! He's a corporate private investigator, and he contracts with a few companies in the US, Budweiser being one of them (along with Jack Daniels, Phillip Morris, Waterford Crystal, Rolex, Ralston Purina etc etc...).  Budweiser's head office is in St Louis......so he's taking a day off to come and see me!  (Even if he didn't take a day off I'd...

What I am: ... emotionally bruised.  Damaged goods, I suppose. ... trying to be less angry and vengeful. .... trying not to give in to temptation. ... a worthless friend sometimes. ... a not-so-good mom some days. ... a lazy housekeeper.  I'll do it when it needs doing, but hardly ever before. ... "flighty" (my dad's words) ... selfish. ... a wanna be, trying-to-be Zen warrior. ...sensitive to other people's perceptions of me. ... afraid of co...

I hurt myself at work today. First, I burnt myself.  Not too bad, I just brushed the back of my hand against a hot popcorn machine kettle. Then, I sprained my ankle.  I was putting boxes of candy away in the warehouse...we had had a delivery and the boxes needed to be taken off the wooden pallette it came on and put up on the shelves.  So, there I was with a 20lb box of Wonka Runts in my hands, and I stepped half-on, half-off the pallette and turned my foot up underneath my ...

I think that I'm the only person in the world who needs a certain amount of space around them in order to function properly. I don't ask for a lot of space, in fact my needs have diminished significantly over the years.  I've gone from requiring 3' between me and the next person to about 1'.  Any closer than that, and I start feeling very uncomfortable and claustrophobic, especially if I don't know the person next to me from Adam. Take my experience the other day, for example.&nb...

i've decided to decorate one room in my house the way i want to....to create a sanctuary for myself and my husband. the rest of my house is a rustic, folk-y kind of decor....but our bedroom is just a mish-mash of various and sundry bits and pieces that didn't 'go' anywhere else in the house. so, I'm making it into a buddhist retreat. i found a tapestry pinky-purpley bedspread with a big buddha head on it for $25, and i'm using that as the room's center.  i saw a wooden buddha ...

I had the great misfortune of standing in line behind someone who smelled bad today. This man....was overweight, wearing pants that were so dirty they were shiny (I'm sure some of you know what I'm talking about), a shirt that had big yellow stains blooming from under the armpits to halfway down the sides, a long greasy bead that had what I presumed to be bits of food stuck in it, all in various stages of decay, long greasy hair and green teeth.  The stench.....made me almost gag.&nb...

I'm changing my hair color. I like to mix it up a bit...I had been trying to grow it out, but I simply cannot handle anything but short hair.  It gets to a certain length, then goes all limp and flat.  I try switching shampoos, conditioners, gels, sprays etc...but it doesn't really make much of a difference.  I simply don't have the time or the inclination to blow dry and curl it everyday, so I keep it pretty short...that way I can just towel dry it, run a bit of wax through i...

Thanksgiving, by Jacob.   Being thankful is nice and a good thing to do.  Here are some things I appreciate.  I'm thankful for my family, my friends and a free country. I think my family is great.  My hole family is nice.  My cosens and I play together.  All the people in my family like me. Another thing is I am thankful for my friends.  We all play together.  Everyone is smart.  My friends and I share secrets. I believe in a free count...

*ring.....ring* me: hello? him:  hey.... him:  ....I love you. me: well, I love you too.  What's going on? him: nada, just was thinking about how much i love you so I thought I'd call and tell you.   Need I say more....?  

I haven't heard anything from the chiropractor's office about who they selected for the job yet. I think I'm going to call them this morning, just to see where they are in the decision process. I'm not really sure I want to know......if they didn't select me, I'm going to be a bit upset.  Not upset crying, just upset disappointed. On second thoughts, perhaps I'll just wait.....

There was an accident in the warehouse at work today. We have a resident cat who had delivered her kittens in a corner about 6 weeks ago.  Today two of them had wandered off and were curled up inside a wooden pallette...it got picked up by a fork lift, and the kitties fell out.  The fork lift driver didn't see then, and started stacking palletes on top of them. By the time I got there, they had the pallettes off of them.  One tortoiseshell one had lost a leg and was esvi...

(excerpt taken from: Present Moment, Wonderful Moment   byt Thich Nhat Hanh) 'If you look deeply into the plam of you hand, you will see your parents and all generations of your ancestors.  All of them are alive in this moment.  Each is present in your body. You are the continuation of each of these people. To be born means that something which did not exist comes into existence. But the day we are 'born' is not our beginning.  It is a day of continuation.  But...

I'm different. I'm not like you.  I don't share your faith, your beliefs, your religion. And I am perfectly okay with that.  I'm not against your praying for me.  I'm not against your quoting the bible  to me.  I'm not even against your talking to me about your faith. I'm happy for you that you have something that you wholeheartedly believe in, that gives you comfort, that makes you happy.  I experience the same feelings when I practice my l...

I knit. I knit hats, I knit socks, gloves, sweaters, scarves, blankets, bags...I even knitted a bikini once. I knit when I'm sad.  I knit when I'm happy.  I knit when I'm frustrated.  I knit when I'm exuberant.  I knit to not think.  It's become almost a meditation for me....nothing but me, my needles and the yarn.  The quiet click clack of needles making knots....the feel of the yarn between my fingers, the miracle of one thread being woven and knotted ba...