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Published on December 22, 2004 By dharmagrl In Misc

What I am:

... emotionally bruised.  Damaged goods, I suppose.

... trying to be less angry and vengeful.

.... trying not to give in to temptation.

... a worthless friend sometimes.

... a not-so-good mom some days.

... a lazy housekeeper.  I'll do it when it needs doing, but hardly ever before.

... "flighty" (my dad's words)

... selfish.

... a wanna be, trying-to-be Zen warrior.

...sensitive to other people's perceptions of me.

... afraid of confrontation for confrontation's sake.  I'll do it when I have to, but I don't like it.

... acutely aware of my failings and flaws.  I don't need your mirror to show me what's wrong with my personality, I can see well enough on my own, thanks.

 

What I am not:

... dishonest.

... egotistical. (although part of me thinks that writing an article such as this is more than a little egotistical and wonders why I'm doing it)

... materialistic.

...  a doormat.  Don't walk on me.

... devoid of feelings.  I hurt the same as everyone else does.

 

 

 


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on Dec 22, 2004
Sounds like a lot of folks I know (including me:) )
on Dec 22, 2004

(including me:) )

Wow....so I'm not the only one who feels like this?  I'm honestly a little awed.  I thought I was the only one...or one of very, very few.

Thanks, Greywar!

on Dec 22, 2004

....so I'm not the only one who feels like this?


Well pop never referred to me as "flighty" but he did toss around "rookie" and "recruit" pretty often

on Dec 22, 2004
hey, unhappy warrior, sounds like you're talking about most of us (xcept the mom part) here. Just like you, we're real people. We just have varying degrees of hiding it.
on Dec 22, 2004
As one imperfect person to another, we all have our problems, and I know I share a number of these with you. But your list isn't long enough, you left out what a kind and caring person you are
on Dec 22, 2004

you left out what a kind and caring person you are


indeed you did... Danny scores as more perceptive than I as usual:)

on Dec 22, 2004

Well pop never referred to me as "flighty" but he did toss around "rookie" and "recruit" pretty often

I never got called those....he did toss in 'social butterfly' once, but mostly it was 'flighty'.

Just like you, we're real people. We just have varying degrees of hiding it.

Some of us do an incredibly good job at hiding it.  If I didn't know better I'd have difficulty believing that some people around here are human in any shape or form (not you, Scatter.  I can tell you're a person )

your list isn't long enough, you left out what a kind and caring person you are

Thanks, Danny....but I don't think that I'm that kind or that caring...and apparently some other people don't think I am either. :/

on Dec 22, 2004

and apparently some other people don't think I am either. :/


it pays to remember how body language and inflection are lost over the net. I don't think the person in question had any malice in her heart.

on Dec 22, 2004
Seems your journey is paying off!  I hope I can make one as well.  You are a stong individual!  Dont ever lose that!
on Dec 22, 2004

it pays to remember how body language and inflection are lost over the net. I don't think the person in question had any malice in her heart.

Yeah, I know....but I wasn't talking about her.  The person I'm talking about shows me their body language up close and personal like on a daily basis.

on Dec 22, 2004

The person I'm talking about shows me their body language up close and personal like on a daily basis.


Oh. I am sorry, sort of thought that was resolved

on Dec 22, 2004

Seems your journey is paying off! I hope I can make one as well.


I think that you've already started...and it will pay off, trust me. 

on Dec 22, 2004

Oh. I am sorry, sort of thought that was resolved


It's okay, and I thought it was too.  I dunno what the problem is now, but I do know that I'm tired of it....

on Dec 22, 2004

I dunno what the problem is now, but I do know that I'm tired of it....


It takes time I suppose.. after a long separation me and mine have been working through similar problems...

on Dec 22, 2004

after a long separation me and mine have been working through similar problems...


..and again, I'm glad it's not just me (us)!


Everything I do irritates him.  Nothing I do is right or good enough...so I'm staying out of his way.  Seemes like the best plan....


 

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