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Published on May 10, 2004 By dharmagrl In Misc

I've been reading the information about death row inmates on the Texas Deartment of Criminal Justice' web site.

There are a few different pages on there...'women on death row', 'offenders on death row' 'executed offenders' and 'scheduled executions'.

The 'Executed Offenders' page contains information about the offenders and their crimes, and also their last statements.  In reading some of these, I am amazed at the amount of a) "innocent" men being put to death and the amount of born again christians - men and women who have done some horrendous things to and against their fellow man, but who go out proclaiming their faith in Jesus the saviour, certain that they will merely fall asleep and wake up in heaven because they have found God and have confessed and repented of their sins.

My first thought when reading about a 'born again killer' is that it's amazing how all the bravado and menacing attitudes disappear when it's crunch time.  They're not such tough men when faced with the needle that will end their life. I wonder if they think, as they're being led into the death chamber, that this is how their victim's must have felt when they realized they were going to die. 

My second thought is that it's not too amazing for them to have found faith whilst waiting to die.  I mean, they didn't have anything else to do.  I wonder though, how many of them were born again out of a love for god and his word, or out of the promise of eternal life in a glorious mansion in a place that has streets paved with gold, where a seat at god's table has been reserved especially for them. That they turned to religion because they couldn't handle the thought of death being the end.  That they turned to religion because they couldn't handle the guilt of what they had done, couldn't forgive themselves and needed a 'higher power' to forgive them instead.

My third thought is that I wonder how many Christians are willing to share heaven with these guys, these murders, rapists and killers.  Can you honestly say that you'd be more than happy to spend eternity with someone who beheaded his 3 small children?  With someone who raped and strangled an elderly lady for her wedding ring?  I don't think that I would.

Which leads me to my last thoughts.  That reading about these people reminds me of how far I have yet to go on this path to enlightenment.  Because sometimes I can't find any compassion within myself for these people.  Because all I can feel when I read about them is disgust and sometimes anger. Because, instead of not wanting them to be out to death because it doesn't negate their crimes in any way or bring any victims back...I want them to be executed.  I want their lives to be snuffed out. 

I am again reminded that I am only human, and that I still have a long way to go.

http://www.tdcj.state.tx.us/stat/deathrow.htm


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on May 10, 2004
The thing is, God doesn't think like us. As Jesus was hanging on the cross, after being brutally punished for doing nothing wrong, as he hung there in pain the last words He uttered were "forgive them, for the know not what they do." Even the offender next to Him, who deserved to be there, he told "today you will be with me in paradise." To my God, sin is sin is sin. To humans, one thing may seem worse than another, but once God forgives, he forgets. In heaven I don't think I'm going to know who died on death row from the little old lady who died in her sleep. The sins get wiped away no matter how "horrendous" they might seem.

I hear what you're saying though, but sometimes it takes extreme cicumstances to bring people to God. Ya know what I mean? It's in our harder times that we search deeply.

Hope you didn't feel as if I was "preaching", simply sharing my viewpoint. Interesting article.

Sarah
on May 10, 2004
I'd say that if someone truly changed, then I could be willing to share Heaven with them, but they'd have to be as good as they were bad. However, I'm positive that most of them are "born again" out of selfish reasons.
on May 10, 2004

No, Sarah, I didn't think you were preaching at all.


I was questioning, I think convicted murderer's sincerity when they accept Christ and profess to be born again.  Are they doing so because they're really sorry for that they have done, or are they doing so because they cannot accept that death is the end?  Would these people, if they were released, return to their former ways once they got out?  Or would their faith continue to be 'a lamp unto' their path?  There's a big difference between actual repentance and saying that you believe because you're being faced with the end of your life.  It's easy to say you have faith when you're in a uber-controlled environment like maximum security prison - in the real world you have to stand on your faith and that's not so easy.  I'm reminded of the parable about seeds and stony ground here.


I was also examining my own lack of compassion.  My faith advises me to try and find compassion for all sentient beings, and whilst I can do it most of the time, I have difficulty finding any compassion whatsoever for some of these people. It's just a gentle reminder, I think, to not get too ahead of myself on the spiritual path and think that I'm further along than I actually am. 


 


 

on May 10, 2004
However, I'm positive that most of them are "born again" out of selfish reasons.
Thats' what I think too. Unfortunately. I think that they're (most of them, anyway)on death row ultimately because of their selfishness, and that they're 'born again' because of what they've been promised or what they think they're going to be getting in the afterlife. "I'm going to a better place" is a common phrase in the last statements (you can read those too) - that and "You're killing an innocent man", and "My death won't solve anything".
on May 10, 2004
"I am amazed at the amount of a) "innocent" men being put to death"

amazed? a more appropriate response would be appalled.

texas inverts blackstone's precept to hold it: 'better that 10 innocent men suffer than one guilty man go free" since the reintroduction of the death penalty , texas has executed 300+ inmates (nearly three times more than any other state and nearly 1/3 of all us executions even tho only 7.5% of the us populations resides in the state.

texas does not provide public defenders; local attorneys are appointed. many do not have capital case trial experience. there are a number of cases in which its people who were ultimately executed in texas were found to have been represented by attorneys who had severe alcohol/drug problems, others by attorneys who slept throughout portions of the proceedings. prior to the recent supreme court ruling barring execution of the mentally retarded, texas executed 6 persons who were adjudged to be mentally retarded.

the most telling fact is this: throughout the us 113 people who were on death row in all states where the death penalty is permitted have been later determined to be totally innocent and have been exonerated. 7 of those were on death row in texas. consider the high percentage of death penalty cases and it seems reasonable to wonder if that number is so low because texas has some secret method for avoiding mistaken convictions.
on May 10, 2004

That was my attempt at sarcasm, kingbee.  If you believed everything that death row inmates said, well then you'd believe there are a lot of innocent people in prison.

I believe that there ARE some innocents in jail.  People who didn't do that which they are accused of and are there because they had a shitty defense attorney or witnesses who lied. I don't believe, however, that every person who protests their innocence is actually so. 

I cannot speak with any authority about the methods the state of Texas uses to try and convict it's criminals because I have limited experience with it.  I will, however, make an effort to educate myself and then I'll come back with a reply.

on May 10, 2004
All I can think of is the scene when Johnny first comes to Shawshank in the movie and asks Andy DuFresnes in the mess hall:

"So, what did you do to get in here, old man?"

"Don't you know, everybody in here is innocent." Alas, in Andy's case it was true.

-- B
on May 11, 2004
I loved the "Shawshank Redemption"... it was a great movie.

My first thought when reading about a 'born again killer' is that it's amazing how all the bravado and menacing attitudes disappear when it's crunch time. They're not such tough men when faced with the needle that will end their life. I wonder if they think, as they're being led into the death chamber, that this is how their victim's must have felt when they realized they were going to die.


Not a lot of reflection time there, but hopefully just enough to make 'em squirm.
........Then again, it is called the 'green mile'..... perhaps it is long enough.

Wreckless.
on May 11, 2004

Some would say that their time on death row awaiting execution is enough time to reflect on what they've done.  I think that until the actuality of the situation hits them, most of them manage to neatly compartmentalize their feelings and don't deal with the reality of it.


Ever see 'Dead Man Walking'?

on May 11, 2004
If i ever get to heaven and i am sharing it with rapists and child molesters then i will ask God to send me to hell.
on May 11, 2004
chances are there will be a populations of each in either place. you might wish to reserve a private suite
on May 11, 2004
chances are there will be a populations of each in either place. you might wish to reserve a private suite
ROFL!!!! Hahaha!
on May 11, 2004

I was also examining my own lack of compassion. My faith advises me to try and find compassion for all sentient beings, and whilst I can do it most of the time, I have difficulty finding any compassion whatsoever for some of these people. It's just a gentle reminder, I think, to not get too ahead of myself on the spiritual path and think that I'm further along than I actually am.

I can not find compassion for people who are sentenced to death or life in prison.(Michigan doesn't have a death penalty....which may explain how Detroit, Grand Rapids and Flint keep having such high crime rates)  If somebody killed one of my family members (such as the case where a boyfriend was killed while trying to save his girlfriend  from being kidnapped) could I forgive that person ever?  No.  I do not think so.  There are certain things that people do that can not be forgiven.  It's all too convenient to say that somebody gets a "second chance".  What about the person that they killed?  They don't get a second chance.  Of course, I have always been a measure for measure type of person.  Let the punishment fit the crime.  It fits right in with "do unto others as you would have them do unto you".  I figure if you kill somebody, you actually want to die yourself.  If you don't want to die- don't kill somebody else.  It's that simple.

on May 11, 2004

If you don't want to die- don't kill somebody else. It's that simple.

And those are my feelings on it as well.  I have tried to look at things from a different point of view, and I just can't.

on May 11, 2004
I hear you brother! I think that we have to forgive all right. But forgiveness does NOT mean swinging open the prison door and letting them go their merry way. We forgive to get US off the hook. They still have to be responsible for what they did and pay for it accordingly. The same, I feel, goes for me. God will forgive me for getting drunk, but I still have to have the hangover.
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