When I was younger, I felt an affinity to punk rock and it's style. Actually, it was verging on gothic...not full on vampire fangs, white faced and red lipped gothic, but a more urban, grungy kind of gothic ( The Damned, Siouxsie and The Banshees et al were favorites of mine)
Anyway, my parents being as they were (wholesome, simple country folks - who just happened to be pretty strict about stuff) I never was really able to indulge in my punk-goth tendencies. I always had linitations on how I could dress and what I could do. I felt stifled, and that led to my not really finding myself until I was nearly 30.
Because I felt stifled as a teenager, I often find myself looking wisftfully at clothes and shoes that I would, had I been given a chance, worn when I was younger. Like the pair of shoes I found a week before Christmas. They're what I call 'bondage boots', and they look like this:
She and I were in Hot Topic, and we saw those beauties on clearance. With 50% off. In my size. I, like a good, mature mother, didn't buy them. I wanted to. Oh, how I wanted to. And, after we had left the store, I almost went back to get them. But, I didn't, and I spent the last couple of weeks kicking myself for not buying them. I tried to tell myself that I'd never wear them, that they were for kids, not for a 36 year old woman, that I was too old - despite the fact that today I went out in a pair of black and white pinstriped pants, a long sleeved Blondie T-shirt (that's the Debbie Harry Blondie, not the cartoon chick) and a pair of black and white converse. I kept telling myself that I didn't need them - but at the same time I knew that I really, really wanted them and that had I bought them I'd have FOUND outfits to wear them with.
Dave and I went to the mall today. We went to Hot Topic. Miraculously, those boots were still there. I tried them on....and they fit. Perfectly. So, I spent $22 and I bought them. I'm wearing them now, actually. And you know what? It feels great. I'm NOT too old for them. I don't care what 'What Not To wear' says, this is ME, dammit. I'm wearing what I want, and I'm fekkin' LOVING it.
I got me some bondage boots, and they rawk!