I'm seeing the surgeon again this morning.
He's going to look at my myelogram films and then we're going to decide what needs to get done and when.
Realistically, I could initiate the 'get D home' campaign this afternoon. His squadron have decided that he shouldn't just come home for 2 weeks e-leave, he should come home to stay. I'll still have to send Red Cross messages and get statements from my family practice doctor and the surgeon, but that's just red tape necessary to facilitate his early return. Red Cross messages have a lot of weight to them as far as the military is concerned...
I'm nervous. I'm trying to be brave and serene about all of it, but it's not working. I so want to get fixed. I'm so tired of hurting, of being limited to what I can do, of being on medications that make me swell and give me heart burn and make me sleepy and nauseous. All I want right now is to be more pain free than I am now...and a spinal fusion surgery can give me that. If I can have 5 pain free days a week, if I can go back to doing yoga every day and maybe even teach it....then I'll be a happy camper. If I can participate in family activities; if I can walk around the zoo with my kids without worrying about how much pain I'm going to be in that night and the next few days....then I'll be a very happy camper.
Keep your finger's crossed for me, y'all. Pray to every deity you have that the surgeon will smile at me and say "why yes, m'dear, I can fix you. Let's schedule you a surgery date".
That would be a dream come true.