Ho hum.  That's how I feel today. It's cool, overcast and raining, which doesn't help much.

 I think that the anger, frustration and nervous tension have finally taken their toll. For 3 weeks all I've done is worry.  Worry about where we're going, whether Dave will get extended or not, whether the paperwork is getting to where it needs to be, if we're going to have enough time to get what we need done, if I should re-enroll our kids in the local school system....all stuff with the potential to be life-altering. 

It's taken it's toll on Lonesome and I as well.  It caused some tension between us, and I don't like that.  It would have been hard enough going through this with him here, but at least we'd have been able to kiss and make up after a tiff.  Because he's gone, we can't do that.  Yes, we can talk on the phone, we can email, but it's not the same.

I'm just...blah, I guess.  Apathetic.  Could care less about much of anything.  That's just on the surface, though. Underneath I can still feel my anger simmering, waiting for something to come to a boil about. 

I really don't like this.  Not at all.