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Published on December 13, 2007 By dharmagrl In Blogging

I'm standing by the window, looking down 16 stories to the highway below when he walks in the door.  We introduce ourselves, and he starts asking me questions.  A couple of minutes into our meeting, he hits gold and I answer 'yes' to EVERY question he asks me.

He chuckles and tells me I'm falling to pieces, and I laugh and agree with him. He takes my hand. 

'We need to get an MRI.  I don't think you have MS; I think that a lot of what you're experiencing is due to the medications you're on - including the weight gain.  Elavil is a great drug; I prescribed it a lot when I was a n00b, but it makes people gain weight and that's not good.  I have something better that you can take home with you.  I also think that you have a little bit of brain damage from the accident you were in - it's not much, just enough to make you feel dizzy from time to time and have trouble remembering things occasionally.  You just cannot expect to come out of something like that without having some residual damage.'

I start to cry, and I don't know why.

'It's ok, Karen.  We'll get you taken care of.  It's nothing that's going to kill you - and I bet that by the time you come back to see me in a month, you'll have dropped 10 or more pounds'.

After I set up the appointment for the MRI, I take the express elevator down to the main floor, find a bathroom, and start bawling.  It's a release of tension, mostly, and it's over within minutes.  I compose myself, and head for Euclid Ave exit so I can walk back to the Metro.

I want to go home.


Comments
on Dec 13, 2007
All I can say is I'm so relieved, honey. I have to tell you I've been sweating a little on this and you haven't been far from my thoughts. I know the experience has been rough but at least your worries can be relieved somewhat. I will continue to keep you in my thoughts.
on Dec 13, 2007
((((((((((((((Karen))))))))))))))))))))))) I am so happy to hear that there is a light at the end of your tunnel.
on Dec 14, 2007
Have a great Christmas.  I hope this was an early indication of better things to come.
on Dec 15, 2007

. I have to tell you I've been sweating a little on this and you haven't been far from my thoughts.

Thank you.  It's been a difficult time for me too, and I'm glad that it's over. Well, sort of over.  The medication change isn't as easy as I thought that it would be, but I'm getting there. 

I am so happy to hear that there is a light at the end of your tunnel.

Thank you, me too! 

I hope this was an early indication of better things to come.

Well, things have been going well for me thus far, so I sure hope that this is the shape of things to come.