Tomorrow is the first day of school for me. I haven't been a college student....well, in quite some time. Years.....and that's what scares me.
I'm scared. I can't pinpoint exactly what I'm scared of; it's more of a generalized scared. I'm a little scared of getting lost, of being late, of not fitting in, of.....of a whole bunch of things. The one thing that I'm NOT worried or scared about, though, is the class work. I KNOW I can do that.
I guess that I'm afraid of change. I like things the same; I like routine and stability. I don't like it when things aren't....aren't.....when things aren't the way they usually are. For instance, when the TV stations change their line-ups, it throws me for a couple of days. It's not so bad that I can't function, it just causes a general uneasiness in me.
Tomorrow isn't a little change for me; it's no TV station line-up change. No sir. It's a whole lot more than that. It's a whole new world opening up for me tomorrow....and this whole new world has the potential to cause even MORE change in the form of a qualification, a job, and even more qualifications in the future. I think that that's what's at the root of my angst and fear tonight; the fact that I can recognize the power and potential that these next few weeks hold. If I do this right....well, the sky's the limit for me (and I mean that literally; there are nurses on LifeFlight choppers).
A whole new world. I'm still scared, but now I'm excited too!