I quit my so-called knitting instructor job yesterday.
When I was hired at the start of June, I was asked to provide them with a short bio and a photo. My supervisor - we'll call her 'Betty' - said that she needed that as soon as I could get it to her, along with some samples not only of my work in general, but of the items we'd be making in class. She said that she'd put the bio and the samples up on the classroom wall so that people could see them and perhaps be enticed into coming to my class.
I knitted every single chance I could for 3 days to turn out 7 dishcloths, all different designs and colors. Dishcloths, to me, aren't fun things to knit, and by the time I cast on for the last one, it had turned into a chore. We were moving house at the time, so I was really stretched time-wise, but I persevered, anda turned them and the bio over to her.
That was the second week of June. The knitting instructor part of the classroom wall is still blank. B-L-A-N-K. No photo, no bio, no samples.
I asked the manager a couple of times. He said that she consistently told him she was working on it. Apparently not, I said, because my stuff still isn't up there. My class isn't being advertised, and nobody new has signed up for it. If nobody has signed up, then there are no fees being paid. If there are no fees being paid, then I'm not getting a cut of those fees. I am, in other words, not making any money.
Apparently Betty thinks that because I don't have any students to teach, she can use me as general help around the store. She consistently asks me to go help her out with this and that and the other, and it's always on the weekend. Now, my main job can be pretty stressful emotionally and mentally, and I rely on my Saturday and Sundays to de-stress, to take a break from things and just do what I want, when I want......and working in a craft store is NOT what I want to be doing on my days off.
So, I quit. I've had enough. The crochet instructor has been saying that she'd like to teach the knitting class ever since I got hired, so she can have at it. Yeah, I could have followed up with the manager more; I could have stayed on Betty's ass about advertising and not using me as general help, but you know what? It's more trouble that it's worth to me. It simply isn't worth it. So, I quit.
I'm going to start teaching classes on my own. I'm going to advertise online and in the local newspaper, and I'll start teaching classes in my living room if I have to. I think that it's going to be better this way; I'll be in control of my own promotions and I'll also be able to decide what I want to teach folks to knit - I won't have to get authorization from someone else. For example, if I want the class project to be a man thong, then that's what it'll be. I won't have to get someone else's approval. I don't like having to ask permission to do something, particularly when the person I'm having to ask doesn't knit and therefore has no idea or comprehension of the skills or time necessary to create an article. For instance, Betty once asked me to teach some kids to knit a potholder in an hour. 60 minutes. I'd be hard pressed to knit a potholder in an hour MYSELF, and I've been knitting for 30 years.
Anyway, it's all water under the bridge now. I'm done teaching there and working there, and I feel like a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders. It's a really cool feeling, and it's telling me that I did the right thing by quitting.
I'm looking after myself; I'm giving myself time to breathe and relax and to just be myself, not Dharma the caregiver or Dharma with hospice - just plain ol' Dharma, doing her thing on the weekend.