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Published on May 16, 2007 By dharmagrl In Misc

My mum flies home today after a three week vacation here with me and mine.

It's been a wonderful time....I don't want it to end.  I don't want her to go home.  I don't want to put her on a plane and have the big Atlantic separating us again.  I don't want to let her go.

I'm not going to let her go.  We have re-established the mother-daughter relationship again; we've re-connected in a way that I wish I had the words to adequately explain....we're close again, and I refuse to let that go.

Time and distance are all relative, and love can span ANY ocean or continent.  We have a bond that cannot, and will not, be broken....not by time, not by distance, not even by death (that's been on my mind because I'm acutely aware that this may be the last time we see each other).  Losing my dad has taught me to not leave anything un-said, to not wait until Mother's Day or Christmas or birthdays to tell your parent just how much you love and appreciate them. 

I haven't left anything un-said.  I haven't let any opportunity pass me by - and I've even created a few opportunities to tell her that I love her and am incredibly proud to be her child.

We may be apart, but we're not separated.

I am not letting her go.


Comments
on May 16, 2007
That's great. I'm glad you had the chance to get close to each other. No-one can take that away.
on May 16, 2007
Sounds like a great time.  I hope you can repeat it soon.
on May 16, 2007
It sounds like you had a great visit and really connected.
on May 16, 2007

Oohhhhhh, this sucks.  I just got home from the airport and I'm more upset than I thought I'd be - it was incredibly hard to say 'see you later' (I refuse to say goodbye) and watch her walk down to the gate. I didn't think I'd be this upset; I knew it was going to be hard, but this is much worse than I expected. 

I'm going to have a cup of tea and a good cry now.

Thank you for your replies, btw.

on May 16, 2007
This is beautiful and I'm happy for you! You didn't think you wouldn't cry now, of course you would! God bless you both!