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Published on April 14, 2004 By dharmagrl In Misc
Here's a quick update on what's been going on around here:

My 'new' computer has crashed on me 3 times in the past 2 days. I'm about ready to take it back and have them look at it to see WTF is going on...and they can do so for free, as far as I'm concerned.

My neighbor has managed to royally piss me off by riding his 4-wheeler all over my newly raked, seeded and watered lawn. Then the people on the other side of me dragged a huge tiller over it, got it stuck in the wet ground and dragged it back out again, leaving me with a nice big furrow in my yard. I wouldn't mind, but we get our yards inspected to make sure they're up to the military's standards and I'll be the one to get the ticket.

The guy that got killed in Balad wasn't from here. I would say luckily, but I don't see it as a 'lucky' situation; someone got killed. I haven't heard if any of our dudes was injured yet.

I have to have an MRI done first thing in the morning and a spinal tap done later this week or early next week. I gave in to my husband's requests and went to the doctor today. I have weakness and neurological defecits in my left hand, arm, and leg, and I've had a headache for 3 days now. It also hurts me to move my eyes. The weakness in my arm and hand didn't surprise me, I knew about that and that was really what I was there for...but the leg explained quite a bit. I fall, a lot, most recently I fell down the stairs and fractured some ribs (I blogged about that back in Feb). I asked him what he though was wrong (I have a good idea myself) and he reeled off a litany of things...MS, lupus, a tumor, epilepsy, Parkinson's, a TIA..there's countless neruological diseases and syndromes that could be causing the symptoms I've been having....too many for him to want to even guess. It could also be something that was caused by the jeep vs 18 wheeler accident.

So, that's about it for me. I'm really not sure how much more of this I can handle. I say that knowing, however, that I'll take whatever is thrown at me and I'll roll with the punches. I bounce, I always have, and I'll bounce back from this like I've bounced back from everything else. I may cry and feel sorry for myself whilst doing so, but I'll be alright.

I would , however, like a bit of a break.


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on Apr 14, 2004
I want a break too. I want to run away. I know I'm a little bit old to do that, and so are you, but doesn't it seem like the best thing right now?

Just run away from your life?

I wish.

~Anne

ps I'm sorry so much is going on with you! Hopefully it will get better.
on Apr 14, 2004
I know, honey. I'd LOVE to slip away for a bit and re-charge my batteries...but that's not going to happen, not anytime soon.

It WILL get better. It has to. For both of us.
on Apr 14, 2004
I know.

Can it really get worse? That's what I keep thinking... I sure hope not, at least.

Maybe I will like, go into a coma for a few days or something and it will be like a little vacation. Of course that would be terrible, but the vacation would be great.

lol me and my sordid sense of humor

~Anne
on Apr 14, 2004
You're not alone, because I wish the same kind of thing.

The thing that bothers me most is having to tell Dave what's been going on. He's so far away, and feels helpless..like he should be here helping me, and he can't be.

I have a numb/tingly spot on my face this evening. My head was shaking earlier and I couldn't stop it. My arm was shaking when I was driving, even my kids noticed it. What the hell is wrong with me?!?
on Apr 14, 2004
i'm really sorry that things aren't going well at the moment. I was very happy to see the part at the end about knowing that you'll bounce back. Lord knows we can't all be positive all the time, but we can still progress forward while feeling shitty about the current status of things... I hope things get better soon! Only a few more months til the man comes home!
on Apr 14, 2004
Just think Dharma... not long till the sun rolls around in that excuse for a hemisphere you have there...

BAM!!!
on Apr 14, 2004
The sun'll come out, Dharmagrl... meanwhile, ask Waddle-doo for help; I'm sure such a fine ducky would have some valuable input.

Hug for you ()

~Dan
on Apr 14, 2004
Some things are not about being fixed, but I find myself fixated on fixing them, if you know what I mean. Your symptoms could result from almost anything neurological, as well as from environmental toxins or environmental stresses. The patterns are the key, of course. My heart goes out to you. I obsess about aging and dying, having done so since age sixteen more or less. I tell myself I'm ready, that the glorious life is present for me regardless, but it just sucks to feel as if we come to consciousness just about the same time that everything starts to slide South.

In relation to your symptomology again, I'd definitely think about checking out a Naturopathic Physician; there's tons of clinical evidence of them making a difference where alopathic approaches just didn't do much---drugs and money medicine---and your case is just the sort of situation where a non-standard approach couldn't hurt to investigate. Take the love of those who know you, even a little, to your heart, whatever decision you make about courses of treatment and action and maddening stupefaction.

Ciao for now,

Jimbo
on Apr 15, 2004
Thank you all for you kind words...I'm ok.
The sun DOES shine around here, it just gets overcast sometimes, dig?

Well, I'm off to go lay in a little tube and get claustrophobic whilst a big-ass magnet takes pictures of the inside of my noggin. It'll probably show what I've known all along: that I have a brain the size of a brussel sprout!

Namaste..
on Apr 15, 2004
Good luck Dharma...I hope everything's gonna be fine. Fingers crossed. Let us know how things go.
on Apr 15, 2004
Ditto to what Mack said. I am thinking of you. Don't worry... it's probably bigger than a brussel sprout.
on Apr 15, 2004
Ditto to what Mack said. I am thinking of you. Don't worry... it's probably bigger than a brussel sprout.


Yeah, I'm betting it's at least the size of a medium sized cabbage...

Seriously, hope all goes well, and I'll be holding you in my prayers till we know what's going on.
on Apr 15, 2004
Keep us updated. Sounds like scary stuff. TIAs are tricky to diagnose and MS episodes can be misdiagnosed as TIAs (happened in my family).

Best wishes!
on Apr 15, 2004
I'm sorry to hear about your illness. It doesn't sound good. I hope that whatever it is it can be taken care of. It must be very hard on all of you since your husband is away.
on Apr 15, 2004

Be prepared that they might not know that is wrong with you.  Auto immune diseases take a long time to diagnose.  My husband took me to emergency a year or so ago because I lost the peripheral vision in my left eye as well as strength in my left arm and leg.  My left hand was numb.  They thought that I had a stroke, but found out that I didn't.  They kept me over night and still didn't know what was wrong.  They sent me home with drugs and said "we think that you will just get better".  Which, eventually, it did.  But, that is the nice stuff that I get with Lupus (which took years to diagnose)

My Aunt recently went through about 3 months of having her lower body numb.  They determined that it must have been a virus because they couldn't find anything else wrong with her.  She has about 95% feeling back, but 3 months of her life were hell and she got no relief from the doctors.

now....wasn't that a ray of sunshine?  I just have issues with doctors

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