Still more things you don't know about me...

I'm feeling particularly open and honest tonight..

Published on April 3, 2004 By dharmagrl In Misc

I'm listening to Madonna's 'Justify My Love' and feeling pretty fucking sensual right now...

k, song's over, let's get down to business.

I have a freckle on the sole of my left foot.

I'm secretly aggressive - well, not so secretly, it's pretty obvious in certain situations.

I like to have a 'don't fuck with me, I'll hurt you' attitude about me in a crowd. Short Girl syndrome, perhaps?

I can shoot pool; in fact I used to win money doing it. Haven't shot in ages though, and I'm probably not very good at it anymore.

I daydream all the time......about things that are never going to happen.

I'm a hopeless romantic. Send me a card or a love letter and I'm useless for days afterwards.

I'm very controlling in relationships, much to Dave's chagrin. It used to be a BIG issue..it's still an issue, but not so bad. In fact, when I talked about letting go(in a previous blog), that was one of the things I let go. It's not something that I'm proud of, and I'm trying hard not to do it anymore.

This is kind of silly, but I have a crush... a couple of crushes, actually. One is on Vic Mackie, the character from 'The Shield'...the other I'm not telling yet.

I'm lonley a lot. And insecure. I don't know why...

I have new favourite blogger..MadPoet..and Everett Lee. You should go check them out.

Well, that's all for this thrilling installment....I'm going to go get some hot chocolate and retire to my bedroom (I'll prolly be back later tho, I'm a terrible insomniac)

Comments (Page 1)

whosyurdaddy0417

on Apr 03, 2004

Is Dave in Iraq?

dharmagrl

on Apr 03, 2004

nope, Greenland. for a year....a fucking year...!!!

Dan Kaschel

on Apr 03, 2004

Thanks:) Some things sound rather reminiscent of myself, others nsm, lol

~Dan

dharmagrl

on Apr 04, 2004

Well, there are things on there that I would hope wouldn't remind you of yourself...unless you're crushing on Mackie too!

Muggaz

on Apr 04, 2004

I'm secretly aggressive - well, not so secretly, it's pretty obvious in certain situations

BWAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Thats why you're on of my favs! you tell it like it is!

BAM!!!

MadPoet41

on Apr 04, 2004

Gosh Dharmagrl--I guess I should say thank you, huh?

. WOW! Well, since we're being so honest here? I think you are EASILY one of the most amazing people I have ever known. I am in awe sometimes of the way you seem to be able to effortlessly express yourself in your clever and compassionate blogs. I am being serious here. You really are an exceptional person. I saw that in you almost from the very first blog. And for you to praise me? Well, of course I'm gonna love that!

. But I'm kind of in a state of shock too? I guess it's just my own insecurities I might have? But I'm getting better about it! Because a large part of me is saying: Hey, if Dharmagrl says you are an interesting person? Then it has to be true! Because I know you are a truthful person. But I hope you really do know that I COMPLETELY admire you as a person and a blogger. You're just so intelligent and cool! So I'm gonna shut up now. Because my face is turning red. But thanks for the high praise. Because that's exactly what it is--since it is coming from the brightest and the best.

~MadPoet

dharmagrl

on Apr 04, 2004

I think that Mad and I should found a mutual admiration sociey..!

Thanks for you words, dudes....I'm blushing too!

Oh, I meant to put in there that my favorite author is Jack Kerouac. Love, love, love Jack...

crimson

on Apr 04, 2004

I like to have a 'don't fuck with me, I'll hurt you' attitude about me in a crowd.

I don't know if it is a 'short-girl syndrome' thing. I'm 5'6 which isn't short nor tall, but I give off that vibe, especially if I am in a bar. Maybe its the alcohol in my system, but I don't have no time for girls clustered around cute boys or bathroom doorways. I'm pretty pushy in those situations. I don't hurt anyone, but I sure do get them to move out of my way fast enough. Same goes with the guys near the smoking areas, so it's an equal-opportunity self-assertion of space.

I can shoot pool; in fact I used to win money doing it. Haven't shot in ages though, and I'm probably not very good at it anymore.
I do, and used to. I've played a bit in the past couple of months and all it takes is more time spent on getting your game back. What are you waiting for?

This is kind of silly, but I have a crush... a couple of crushes, actually. One is on Vic Mackie, the character from 'The Shield'...the other I'm not telling yet.

I have crushes all the time. They're fun, but not terribly productive. The good thing is, the majority of crushes that I have had, I usually end up being very good friends with them. Generally, when you are crushing on someone, you tend to overlook the idea that they may have some faults. I'm not saying they have to be perfect, but some things I do chose not to overlook, especially if I have nothing yet in stake about my decision.

I'm a bit lonely too, although I think that more comes from having to stay in, when I know that all my other friends are busy going out. I am a romantic, but have yet to be with anyone who is one as well. I wonder what it would be like to be with someone who is equally desirous about showing feelings and signs of affection?

New bloggers? Who are they? I've realized that I spend very little time looking at other people's blogs outside of my own little circle of listed faves. Recently, I've been impressed with whosyurdaddy 'MacDaddy'... he's more political, it seems, but not strident, if you catch my drift. It will be interesting to see how he interacts with some of the other poli-bloggers. I also like MasonM's and Sarah-girl's.

Dharma- I think it's great when you post blogs like this. Keep em coming.

new-age nomad

on Apr 04, 2004

what a fun read! Oh, and that's not a short girl syndrome, btw. I think everyone does that every now and again.

Especially teenagers trying to be intimidating. *cough*TRIN*cough*

haha

Trinitie

dharmagrl

on Apr 04, 2004

I don't hurt anyone, but I sure do get them to move out of my way fast enough.

Yep, that's EXACTLY what I'm talking about. I won't back down from a confrontation either. I don't start shit, but if someone starts shit with me I don't give an inch. One of these days it's going to get my ass kicked, but my philosophy on that is if I'm going down, I'm going down fighting and someone's coming with me. Actually, that's pretty much my philosophy on life...

Generally, when you are crushing on someone, you tend to overlook the idea that they may have some faults.

That's it....I think I'm crushing on the IDEA of someone rather than on THEM.

I wonder what it would be like to be with someone who is equally desirous about showing feelings and signs of affection?

That's what I daydream about most of time. I get caught up in daydreams that involve a never-ending thread of romantic displays...like I said, it's never going to happen, but it's nice to get lost in it sometimes.

MadPoet41

on Apr 04, 2004

I love the whole Beat Generation writers thing. And Jack is the best. Although I do like some of Ginsberg's early poems. Especially "HOWL". But I guess everybody likes that one, huh?

"I saw the best minds of my generation destroyed by madness..." WOW! How come nobody writes like that anymore? Allen was a kind of prophet. And so was Jack. So is that where you get your blog name from? I always wondered about that? Cool...

dharmagrl

on Apr 04, 2004

Dude, you are fucking awesome. You are the only person who has figured it out so far. That's what inspired me..there are other meanings in it, but that's what kicked it off.

Please, please, email me. dharmagrl69@yahoo.com or IM me at dharmagirl69 on yahoo messenger. it's not very often I meet someone who gets me and what I like, so I'm desperate to pursure this a bit further.

Btw Allen Ginsberg....genius. Pure genius.

Everett Lee

on Apr 04, 2004

DG, thanks for the name drop. I'm so happy you've liked my posts so far. I will try not to disappoint. I've taken a liking to you to, though I have to say that my attention keeps gettting drawn towards the posts that I disagree with. I think it is everyone's duty to not let hate and ignorance go unchecked.

Dan Kaschel

on Apr 04, 2004

Ah, you've found a kindred spirit:)

~Dan

dharmagrl

on Apr 04, 2004

Ev, I know what you mean. Some of the ignorance and discrimination here is breathtaking.

Dan, yes, I think I have. I'm pretty pleased about it too...now if I could just get Mad to email or IM me I'd be pretty happy! You're welcome to Im me too, if you'd like..

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