I'm having a bad day today.
I'm just in a crappy mood. Nothing fits right, and everything is pissing me off or making me blue. I looked at my monroe this morning and thought that maybe I don't like it as much as I thought I would...got to second guessing myself that maybe I'm too old for it, maybe my kids were right, perhaps I should be more mainstream. I've resisted the temptaion to take it out....because that will tick me off even more when I get over this mood and realize that I really did like it and that I just threw away $50 getting it done. I've tried meditating and found that I couldn't get the hang of it today (the constant interruption from my kids doesn't help much- there's no school today). I miss my husband...we talked briefly this morning but I still miss him. I want a hug, I want to be held and told it's all ok, that soon enough we'll be done with this separation and we'll be on the next leg of our journey together. Obviously, that's not going to happen (the hug, I mean)
I think I'm hormonal. I don't like it. I can feel the 'real' me fighting to get out, to break through this fog of gloom like a ray of sunshine...
I think I'm going to go clean. Perhaps taking my frustrations out on the bathtub and kitchen floor will help ease my angst...