Tomorrow is the day...

..under the knife I go...

Published on March 18, 2004 By dharmagrl In Surgery

I'm in a fantastically shitty mood today. It started with the 'Pascal's Wager' fiasco. That was a wonderful way to start the day, I should have know that would happen when I first posted it....oh well, hindsight and all that.

That, combined with my nervouseness and trepidation about tomorrow has served to make me a fucking bitch to be around.

You know, I thought that I'd be tearfully scared, and I havent been. I had a bit of a blub this afternoon, but got over that pretty quickly...now I'm just pissy.

I looked at myself this morning when I stepped out of the shower. I turned this way and that in front of the mirror looking at my breast and thinking that it's never going to look like this again, ever. This time tomorrow it'll be deformed and disfigured, scarred and dented....but at least the majority of it will still be there. It could be much worse, I could be having a mastectomy...heck, I might end up having to have a mastectomy depending on what tomorrow's results show...but at least for now I'll still have a pair.

I wish Dave were here.......

Comments

JillUser

on Mar 18, 2004

I truly feel for you. I hope all your worries are proven unneccesary. Best wishes.

crimson

on Mar 18, 2004

I'll be thinking of you. I hope all goes well.
Nic.

stevendedalus

on Mar 19, 2004

Let's hope and pray your fears are groundless. I have some sense of what you're going through--my wife had breast cancer.

Janders

on Mar 19, 2004

I really hope tommrow goes well for you. I will keep you in my prayers.

imajinit

on Mar 19, 2004

we're all with ya Sis... ;

hope all goes well and Please let us know as soon as you know

Sherye Hanson

on Mar 19, 2004

I hope things go well. I understand your grief. It happened to me twice, but hopefully the damage won't be that bad and it will go well.

KarmaGirl

on Mar 19, 2004

dharmagrl, I hope that everything goes well for you. Be more concerned with your health than the look of your breast. Men like them.....even if you only have one or they end up not being "real". I am sure that your husband is more concerned about *you*, anyway.

You will in my thoughts until we hear that you are fine.

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